ONCE.

the gush came too late,
the flow should never reach,
the rush went with fate,
the glow I can't preach.
you're just like everyone.
you're just like anyone.
you want to run away.
you want to find a way.
a whirl came too early,
a twirl should always rock
a flip came too curtly
the last book was locked
a field has been abandoned
the seats are empty
the runaway train must stop
the seats are still empty
taking time to remember this
taking time to remember this
maybe we'll be there
where words cannot lift us to
air.
pure water.
you went too fast for me
I couldn't keep up with you
I'm still
too still and silent
I'm breaking for the pause I need that always come with long breathes and sentences
let me be still
let me be silent
I'm breaking
will you pick up the pieces some other time?
But,
I can't keep up with you.
I can't go back.
release this grip, whoever masters my heart
I'm in your debt,
when will I learn?
Let it go,
the river will flow,
upstream
back to where waters come from.
flashbacks.
wind.
who blows?
from whence
the day
longer than I expect
falling slowly,
the rainbow, a blur in the sky
I'm in love,
will be in love
once,
once,
once,
I'll listen to the melody on your behalf
the hills will listen with me
when you have closed your eyes
will you shine with me,
maybe not
somewhere, in parallel lines
we'll not meet
I'll be patient
you'll be patient
sorry, you have to see
the strength inside me,
burning... ... ... ...
this way, that way,
i may leave a trail,
which I will follow
return to the spot we met,
the blue covered clouds
my blanket while I slept.
the mornings will be cold.
but we will be warm
very warm
longer than it takes
but it's always longer than it takes
as we compose our tapestry of voices
a distance, far
looking for us,
our voices are looking for us.
taking time to look
taking time to look.
les gouttes de Dieu
we will be forgiven by water
you will always
be special
and then, you're gone,
you're gone.
each flying
to our seperate right and left
if you don't mind
i leave.
leave.
as well.
we were sentimentally happy.
sentimentally happy.
we'll learn
yes we'll learn
calm storms
breaking waters
skipped sceneries
the final train seemed to be taking a long time to pull over
but I appreciated that it lasted so long
so long
I'll pull myself away
this tie, I couldn't escape
mean
mean so much
cruel as it may sound
crashing and breaks screaming!
but we know what they mean.
the end.
there,
the two stories combined
death has been stolen,
lost virtual conversations and traces on the tracks
trains are such heart-wrenching constructs
I leave a tunnel
to find another tunnel
and another
and another
without reaching your heart
my own trembles.
perhaps you know
without my unpost letters
the motif of leaving
it's not because they can't reach
but there are always the mediating factors
I don't trust postmans.
the distance is always there.
how near we were,
but endless
and repetitive
our narratives.
once upon a time.
I once knew,
how to talk to you.
you knew,
how to talk to me.
Once.
not any more.
and somewhere
we lost the rhyme
but it's okay.
cool memories,
how we gaze at each other
scratching the surface of our monologues
how precious they still are,
Once,
we knew where to look for each other.
not any more.
taking time to forget
taking time to forget
but i regret to say
i won't
each day
taking time to regret
taking time to regret
I will
either way
say it now,
as if it is my violent last resistance
dragging
say
no matter
try hard to work this out
and still say
despite so many misunderstood and doubts
one thing will never change
no melodies here, and rhymes
this is no poetry
I will say it now -
I loved you.
I loved you.
I loved you.
I love you.
I died.



Once (OST).

this is the second letter that was not posted by the author. I have taken the liberty to post it here.