He doesn't know Why

this will be a long entry.
before
we
sleep,
if we
sleep
you
don't say
a
single
word
that I will
understand
there
must
be
a
way
to understand
seeing
you do
a hand stand
vaguely
I remember
the cartwheels
you did
don't
take
away
this memory
there's
nothing
I
have left in me
to say
which door
may
open
to
a field
with a mountainous
horizon
walls of lavender
some seeds fly
dandelions of sweetness
visions
of that long sleep
I so long for
we'll be there
if
we don't believe in the new
but the
always there
i can't
remember
the lyrics to the
song
but I'll roam
with this secret
for another
2 years,
when the river will dry
up
coming home
till later
this is
a despair
of not being
able
to get rid of
my-self
and the other one waits for
me
surely
i must leave
surely
here is where I leave to
tell my children
if you see them
I am here
weary
till
i can't even
begin
to express
ready
for nothing
to end
or
begin

I will
do
my best
to wipe
the dog
dry
before
it
freezes
and the moon
will glow
this night
to welcome
the
morning light
and we
can invite
the elves
to
have
breakfast with us
and
the wait
will be
more bearable
blind dogs
they smell
me still
haunted houses
are childhood
memories
there is a strange
song
on the radio
as if
experiencing
it
like a deja vu
where
does it intend
to tell me?
I have
never
missed a flight
but
I wonder how
that would feel
or
better
board the wrong plane
and no one knows
where
will I end up?
?
I am sure it will be fine,
when
I see you
outside
the minus degree sky
you wave
while the
seat quivers
even if
i don't mind
the seatbelt
to tie me down
while
I move
there must be a point
where I can
see
both the sun
and the moon
together
If
I have a choice to die
I wish to fall
high up
in the sky
and slowly see
your world opens itself up to me
and at
the point of impact
the entire world
inverts

the order
change
I
wait
please
?me
for
looking
you
are
eyes
my
lift
mouth
my
silence
are
you
there
and

?
i
don't
;
belong
;

please convince me to end this adventure.